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[14 Sep 2008|03:11pm]
Your results:
You are Deanna Troi
Deanna Troi
Beverly Crusher
Jean-Luc Picard
Will Riker
Mr. Sulu
James T. Kirk (Captain)
Geordi LaForge
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You are a caring and loving individual.
You understand people's emotions and
you are able to comfort and counsel them.

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[25 Aug 2008|09:50pm]

So, FireSerpent, your LiveJournal reveals...

You are... 4% unique (blame, for example, your interest in jazz and blues clubs) and 30% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing). When it comes to friends you are normal. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are wary of trusting strangers. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional.

Your overall weirdness is: 15

(The average level of weirdness is: 28.
You are weirder than 29% of other LJers.)

Find out what your weirdness level is!

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From another BFC member's blog... [13 Apr 2008|08:22am]
I'm doing this for selfish reasons lol. I like what she said here and I don't want to have to hunt for it again, or risk her deleting her blog and losing this wisdom. So, I posted it here to peruse at my own pace. I do think she's onto something though.

For about the past week and a half I have felt nudged toward blogging again. I have been really busy and haven't had much time, Goddess knows I've had enough topics to vent upon, but--- I haven't written.

So, this evening, I take keyboard in hand…

This is something to which I never really gave much thought, until now.

Those of you who know me are aware that I am studying Vedanta. Read, think, think, think, puzzle, read, think, research, puzzle, think, go to sleep thinking about it, wake up thinking about it, sit outside at lunchtime in downtown Pittsburgh, smoking a ciggie and thinking about it, reading some more, read on the bus, listen to podcasts on the bus… and I'm barely scratching the surface.

So every once in while I start surfing the 'Net on Vedantic topics.

What I read stopped me dead in my tracks.

Some of us participate in healing circles, prayer circles, whatever you wish to call them. We get a number of varying requests at any given time.

It's not the number of healings, or the little stuff that concerns me.

It's the big stuff. The miracles.

We are not just "sending healing energy" or "sending positive energy" when we work on these requests. We have become wheelers and dealers, traders in a market, where the prices are fixed and immutable. The currency—is karma.

I can go into the fancy names for the karma some other time, but, in the simplest of terms, there are three types of karma:

1. Cumulative – all the karma you still "owe," incurred over many past lifetimes. Too overwhelming to be dealt with in only one incarnation.
2. Current Life – the karma you must live through in this lifetime, and you are born with this karma. This includes genetic traits, preferences, weaknesses, strengths, your gender, your physicality, etc. The only way to balance this karma is to be born, endure/deal, and die.
3. Ongoing – the karma you incur through your deeds in this lifetime. Some of this may be balanced or discharged in this lifetime; some will carry over into later incarnations.

Here are some basic rules in the game of life, the laws of nature:

1. All the pain humans suffer in life is because they have run afoul of a law of nature and/or false identification with the physical body as the real Self.
2. Karmic debts must be discharged. They are not "excused" or forgiven. Non-payment is not an option. Ignorance of the law is not a defense.
3. Karma does not discriminate. Regardless of your income, status, employment, pedigree, religion, or title, karma applies equally to all.
4. What appears to be inequity (i.e., baby born in third world country who starves to death vs. baby born in Beverly Hills raised in the lap of luxury) is actually karmic accounting.

Discharge of karma can happen in a number of ways. There may be more ways than just those listed here, but these are the best known:

1. The individual pays the karmic price.
2. Someone else agrees to assume the karmic debt and they pay it.
3. "Burning off" of karmic debt through prescribed spiritual practices.
4. Attainment of spiritual realization before physical death.

Number Two, above, is the subject of this blog.

When someone is healed of an illness or injury against all odds, when the doctors have told the family to begin making arrangements for the person's death and burial, we call that a miracle.

People thank God, by whatever name and in whatever form, for miracles.

Not so fast, folks.

Miracles aren't free.

History records several examples of persons who performed healing wonders. One of the most famous healers in history is Jesus of Nazareth, revered by millions of Christians as Jesus Christ. His physical incarnation on earth cannot be proven (i.e., there are no artifacts of his life, since the Shroud of Turin was debunked and found to be made in the Middle Ages). But if we proceed with this argument using the stories of his life, we know that he performed any number of miraculous healings during the course of his public ministry.

Legend has it that Jesus traveled extensively during the "lost years" between the ages of 12 (the last scriptural recording of an event of his childhood) and 30 (the beginning of his public ministry). It is said that he traveled to Egypt, India, and Tibet, among other places.

The style and wording of his teachings imply that he was heavily influenced by Eastern thought, and that he had more than just a working knowledge of Vedanta and yoga (the spiritual discipline, not the exercise).

The other acts attributed to him (such as walking on water, feeding the multitudes) have also been attributed to yogic adepts of the East. Connecting the dots, one could surmise that Jesus was well trained in yogic practice and was able to perform such amazing feats.

Keeping in mind the Christian tradition that he is God incarnate come to earth, he operated within the limits of a human body to demonstrate that the attainment of union with God is possible for mere humans. Hindus of India acknowledge his divine incarnation and consider him one of the avatars (I think there's ten; the last one hasn't come yet).

So Jesus was well-acquainted with the Eastern scriptures, and he knew the law of karma.

Jesus knew that karma is unavoidable; it must be discharged.

As a yogic adept, he knew (this is key) how to transfer karma from the body of another into his own body. He knew ahead of time, before performing a healing, that he would have to pay the karmic price for the miraculous healing.

Most readers, Christian or not, are well-acquainted with the manner of his death.

A saint of India, Ramakrishna by name (whose existence can be proven, by the way; he lived in the age of photography) also performed miracles of healing. It is said that he assumed the karma of his disciples into his body. He died after a long, lingering, and excruciatingly painful battle with cancer.

There's so much more I could say on this matter, but I'll confine comments to just a few before getting to the bottom line. Number one, imagine the love that a person must have for his/her fellow man to knowingly take unto himself or herself the karma of others, in full awareness of the dreadful price he or she will pay. Number two, I wonder if the salvation (removal of karma) Jesus offered was limited to those with whom he had personal contact; it wasn't carte blanche for generations to come. Maybe his assumption of the karma of others was confined to physical healing. He was severely beaten during the period of torture before his crucifixion. There is a Bible verse that says, "…by his stripes we are healed." Perhaps his teachings were meant to show people how to achieve spiritual realization, "burn off" their own karma through spiritual practice, and essentially, "save" themselves. Of course, the sick people who acknowledged him as God basically achieved union with him (and thereby the Supreme Godhead), and he may have taken all of their karma, not just the karma responsible for causing the disease or condition. That would mean that they cleared all of their karma, and no longer needed to climb on the wheel of birth, life, death and rebirth.

I'm talking myself into a circle, here, so I'll move on.

Parenthetically, I'm not advocating Christian practice, dogma, or beliefs. I'm addressing the subject of Jesus as a fully-realized yogi, and also as an avatara of God. My emphasis is on his FULL AWARENESS of the price he would pay when he healed people.

Now, finally, I get to my point: There have been some miracles of healing attributable to workings done by members of the Black Forest Family, jointly and severally. My question is, who is paying the price?

I have never heard discussed among BFC healers the "cost of doing business." We rejoiced for miracles, to be sure. No doubt, outside of our tradition, there is some sniggering going on. Of course, it's in their training materials or BOSs, and they knew it all the time… and I don't believe a word of it. If it WAS discussed, where the heck was I?

So many people jump on the "I wanna be a healer" bandwagon. People with NO training whatsoever. Good hearts and good intentions do not protect one from the karmic consequences.

If you know someone with cancer, they are dealing with karmic debt. When all the cancer goes away and the doctors are scratching their heads, wondering if it was a misdiagnosis, somebody other than the original cancer patient has assumed the karmic debt and that somebody will pay the price at some point in time.

Healers are trained not to draw illness or injury through their own bodies as they work for a sick or injured person; they are to pull it out and send it into the earth. That's about as much of a warning as I've ever heard. But that still doesn't address the karmic debt.

Our bodies are the vehicles for the balancing of karma. The body is the only battlefield (and the only altar of sacrifice).

That being said, the big guns healing should only be handled by a well-trained, spiritually advanced, fully informed person who has complete foreknowledge that they will pay the price for a miraculous healing. Such a person should be sacrificially-minded (but not a martyr in the bad sense of the word). Healing should be their dharma, their karma yoga, and their bhakti yoga.

Beginners should stay far, far away. Those whose dharma does not include the healing arts should also stay far, far away.

Miracles aren't free.
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As if there were ever any doubt... [06 Apr 2008|12:52pm]

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What Tarot Card Are You? [30 Mar 2008|12:52pm]

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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A Box Full of Memories [11 Jan 2008|09:36pm]
A box of memories

Last night before I left work, my boss Jeanine gave me an interesting task to take on, if I chose to. When she told me what it was, I agreed to it without question.

Before the store moved into its present location, it was in business for about nine years on another street. About three years ago, that store caught fire. While everyone was cleaning out what was left behind, the owners found a box of someone's belongings. Apparently, they were the property of the person who had leased that location before my boss did.

This box held scrapbooks, yearbooks, photo albums, letters, awards, and a high school letterman's jacket that all belonged to a man named Dennis Pierce. And were all dated from the 1960s. Jeanine asked me if I would be interested in trying to find Dennis to return his box to him. She said, and I totally agreed with her, that if it were me, I'd want to have all that stuff back. And even if Dennis were deceased, I'd like the kids or family to have it. I took the scrapbook home with me last night.

Philly loves detective work. One thing he told me he was always interested in doing was working as an investigator. So, I mentioned this project to him and asked if he'd like to help...

He basically took it over! :)

Anyway, last night we went through the scrapbook looking for names and places that might give us a lead on tracking down Mr. Pierce. We couldn't find much. Then Philly thought about trying to track down his father, since he was mentioned more often in some places. We did. Philly learned that his parents owned a farm in Malta, ID. After that, we went to bed.

This morning, I took over. :) Since Philly doesn't like talking to strangers all that much, I called the post office in Malta to ask if anyone had an address or any information on Dale Pierce, Dennis' father, who was the former postmaster there till he retired in 1999 (at age 81!) They didn't, but told me that he was living in Burley now. I asked for the phone number of the Burley post office and called there. The Burley post office couldn't give me an address, but he did give me a phone number for Dale Pierce. I thanked him and then called Dale Pierce.

I suppose it was Dennis' mom who answered. I asked for Dale Pierce, and when I was on the phone with him, I explained who I was and the reason for my call. He informed me, sadly, that Dennis had passed away. But asked if I might ship the box to him, as he would love to have that back. I said it would be my pleasure to, and got his address. He offered to pay for the shipping, but I said since I didn't know how much it would be, that I'd rather if he wanted to, he could just reimburse that when the box arrived. I don't know if Jeanine and Jon will even ask for that, but he made the offer, so I'll leave it to them to work out the details. Philly and I did our part and I feel great about it.

This old man was so excited to hear that his son's awards, letters, scrapbook and pictures and so many other things would be returned to the family. He has to be close to ninety years old... I'm just amazed.

And I felt really good about it. :)
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excellent :) [12 Nov 2007|08:57am]
Your results:
You are Zoe Washburne (Second-in-command)
Zoe Washburne (Second-in-command)
Malcolm Reynolds (Captain)
Dr. Simon Tam (Ship Medic)
River (Stowaway)
Wash (Ship Pilot)
Kaylee Frye (Ship Mechanic)
Jayne Cobb (Mercenary)
Derrial Book (Shepherd)
Inara Serra (Companion)
A Reaver (Cannibal)
Dependable and trustworthy.
You love your significant other and
you are a tough cookie when in a conflict.

Click here to take the Serenity Personality Quiz

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Halloween Witches [22 Oct 2007|09:08pm] is one of my favorite websites and typically, I visit it every day. If not that often, then at least a few times a week as time allows. Also, working at a Pagan/Wiccan/New Age store affords me the simple luxury of not having to worry about being 'out' about my religion in the workplace. I've worked several other jobs where that's not a bonus. But, as the season approaches the end of October, and Witches come out more into the mainstream media, different opinions are bound to surface. Recently, I read an article posted through witchvox where a woman was complaining because a neighbor had a Halloween decoration that she found offensive: A witch hanging from a noose on a tree. She was upset and said it was a 'hate crime' to portray witches in such a manner. That we are a religious group and are guaranteed freedoms and rights just like anyone else. That if the man had hung a black guy, it would have been deemed a racial slur, but since it was a witch, it was okay.

I'm honestly not sure where I stand with this. One side of me says that she should just relax and get over it. Halloween has been plastered with images of witches as the green-faced hag, with the conical hat, the black clothing, the ratty broomstick, and to be honest, I don't see that stereotype changing any time in my lifetime. Part of me wonders if it even should...

I remember several years ago when I was outraged at depictions of Witches with warty noses, being said to eat children, and turn people into toads. Witches were the quintessential 'bad guy' of fairy tales and folk stories. I remember being upset at being labled with these malicious defamatory images. Witches -real Witches- were loving, caring, protective, responsible, defenders of animals and nature. We are people who revere the Earth and elements, seeing them as manifestations of the Divine, and recognizing that the Divine is also in us as it is in everything.

Then, I began digging deeper into the history of the Burning Times, of the Witch Trials of Europe that followed Puritan Englishmen to North America.

The Malleus Malificarum, the most cruel, hideous, malicious piece of text ever to be printed, identified supposed qualities of Witches. It said what crimes they were guilty of. It gave detailed instructions on how to persecute, torture, and finally execute the people accused of Witchcraft. This was a book written in the fifteenth century -- and used by Witch Hunters for many generations afterward.

It said that a Witch could be identified by a marking, blemish, or mole upon her skin. Any slight imperfection could serve as a death sentence. A freckle... or a wart was a sure way to know a woman was a Witch.

It said that Witches had sex with the Devil and suckled demonic familiars on a 'Witches Nipple' - which could have been any number of things commonly found on the human body -- something as simple as an ingrown hair would be looked at as one of these nefarious things. It is said that Witches ate babies, and used the fat from unbaptized infants to make their mysterious flying ointment or other such potions. It said that she used a broom to fly to the Sabbats, to make merry with demons, imps, and other Witches, casting spells to blight crops, cause disease, kill people, and even magic away men's penises.

It told how to torture Witches, how to promise freedom if they confessed or if they implicated others, so that the damned list would just keep growing and growing, filling the torture chambers with more and more people screaming in pain and begging for mercy or death. But then that such relief should not be granted, because after all, they were deserving of death for committing these crimes. Teeth were knocked out, hair ripped out from the roots, flesh torn off with hot pincers, legs broken, arms dislocated from sockets, tongues pulled out, rape, beatings, dunkings, strapping, the rack, flesh slowly roasted over hot coals, and finally with judgement pronounced, being burned at the stake, while still alive.

To me, it's no wonder that the Witch is depicted as green, with a crooked nose, missing teeth, mangled hair, hunch-backed. Imagine what being in a chamber, and subjected to those sorts of tortures would do to the body. Hair, straggly and damp, body unkempt, clothes torn or missing - because torture was performed with the victim in the nude. The Witch's nose would be misshapen from being broken, her hands malformed from the thumbscrews to where she could hardly hold on to the side of the cart as they wheeled her into the town square for the burning. Her skin would be a mottled green or yellow, from bruises that had faded from their darkened blue or purple. Her smile, was now a mess of broken or missing teeth between blood-flecked lips. She would be half-bent over either from the pain of standing -if she could still stand- from being pulled on the rack or facing the strappado. To people watching, they learned what a Witch looked like from these public executions and they heard of the crimes they were found guilty of through torture.

This is what the image of the "Halloween Witch" is rooted in. So to me, instead of being offended... now I am thoughtful. Where each green, grinning, old woman with her broomstick and black cat leers at me from store windows or displays, I can see the image of a woman who once was accused of Witchcraft and died for it.

Let the man keep up the 'hanged witch' in his front yard.

And let us all remember why such an image is even in our minds.
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Violet [21 Sep 2007|03:04am]
Violet started retaining fluid in her abdomen after her trip to the vet last week or so, whenever it was. Then, Thursday night she was in a lot of pain. So, Friday morning I took her to the vet for a walk-in before I went to work. They drew blood and drew some of the fluid out of her abdomen to test it. The vet thought she might have FIP (feline infectious perionitis) which would be very bad as it is incurable and highly dangerous.

The good news is that the test came back negative for the perionitis and the vet said that the fluid contained a lot of sceptic bacteria. I told them about Violet's history, with having the inflamed uterus, and they said that was likely to be the cause of her abdominal troubles. They think the uterus ruptured. So, went into surgery late Friday night to be spayed (have the uterus removed) and to have the scepsis fluid drained. and to see what if anything else may be causing her to have all that fluid in her abdomen. They planned on doing some exploratory surgery. Basically, she had about a pound of fluid weight gain in the past two weeks.

She's very lucky to be alive. When she went in for surgery, it was to drain the fluid and remove her uterus for spaying. When the vet got in there though, he found out that her entire uterus was full of tumors and pus and had swollen up to about fifty times its normal size.

Comparitively -- a healthy feline uterus is about the size of a 50-cent piece. Healthy fallopian tubes are about the circumference of a string of yarn... Violet's uterus was about the size of Philly's computer speaker and her fallopian tubes were about the size of large garden hoses. She looks really skinny now.

The surgery went well. She's a tough kitty. The vet was either overly-realist, or just sort of pessimistic. He called me after the surgery (around 2 am Friday night) to tell me what he had found and what he had done. I asked if I'd be able to take Violet home tomorrow (Saturday) and he said, "No, absolutely not. She might not even make it through tonight." I knew better, but I'll tell about that a bit later :)

So I called the vet again in the morning when I woke up (also Saturday) I asked how Violet was doing, and the lady vet who was there told me she was doing really well. She was awake, eating, drinking (she commented that Violet had a really hearty appetite) that she'd had a bowel movement, was cleaning herself, all sorts of things. I asked if I could see her that morning before I went to work, and she said "Of course." So Philly and I went there and she was all lovey and whiney and wanted to go home. But aside from the stitches and her being hooked to an IV in her front leg, you wouldn't know she'd just had major surgery. So I went to work. They told me I could call back after 6pm when Violet's surgeon/vet got in and ask him about her going home, but that vet -the lady- thought there'd be no trouble with it since Violet was doing so well! :)

I called again around 4pm to check on her, she was still doing really well - health wise - and the vet told me she'd sort of become a 'holy terror' to the staff. She'd be all loving and sweet till she realized they weren't going to let her out of the cage or off the IV, then she'd turn into fussy-devil-cat. I said, "Yup...that's Violet."

The vet called Philly's house a little after six and said that she'd be fine to go home tonight. He was also really surprised how well she was recovering -- given her age and what all she'd had done and everything. Again -- not a big surprise to me ::wink::

Anyway, she's home now, had an appointment on Monday just to get checked out and make sure she's still doing alright and that there isn't a problem with the stitches or anything. She's having another recheck appointment tomorrow and to get more antibiotics - the vet wants her on them for another week to kill off the infection totally. Then at the end of this month, she has another appointment to get the stitches out. She's been eating and drinking and going to the litter box with no problems. Jasmine has wanted to play with her, but Violet isn't allowed to run, jump, climb, etc for the next week.

She's on two different antibiotics -- one pill and one liquid -- neither of which are easy to give to her cause I have to be careful of her stitches when she's fighting me.

This surgery saved her life. The vet said she'd have had no chance without it and probably would have died within a couple of days. Philly's parents paid for it so I'll be paying them back with all my paychecks probably for about the next year. It was really expensive. If they hadn't paid for it... well, there was only one other option with two ways of dealing with it if you know what I mean. I'm unbelievably grateful, to them and to Bast.

Violet's recovery has been miraculous... I worked for her from the time she went into surgery till I fell asleep and the vet called to tell me how it went and what he found. But I'd fallen asleep with no worries. :)
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Military or Mob? hmm.... [21 Sep 2007|02:52am]
1. Join the Military or the Mob?
Hard to say... normally I'd say the military, but I'm having serious issues with the government and its choices right now. So, Mob.

2. Turn a close friend in if they committed a serious offense ex. murder?
Would entirely depend on the situation. But if I give my word to them that I won't turn them in, then I wouldn't.

3. Make one porno if it meant never having to work again?
I'd get bored and still want to work, so that wouldn't really matter. It'd be really cool to be paid enough so that I wouldn't have to work though... decisions, decisions.

4. Cheat on your bf/gf with your biggest crush if there was no possibility that they would EVER find out?
Cheating is never okay.

5. Eat spoiled food from the garbage or go hungry?
Go hungry. At least that way you're just starving, rather than being sick and starving. Cause, if the food is spoiled, it's gonna come back up anyway.

What if...
1. In your relationship you find out you are going to have a baby but one of you doesn't want it. Who has the right to choose?
Both. If I don't want it but the father does, then I'll still have it and he can get custody. If I want it and he doesn't, then I'll have it and keep it. The only time I'd consider not having it is if we both agree not too. Neither parent has more say than the other.

2. Your partner had to work overseas for a year, would you consider playing around?
Cheating is never okay. If that became a serious issue, I'd just end the relationship first.

3. You find out before having sex for the first time with your partner that they have a highly contagious STD, would you still have sex with them?

4. You are in a serious accident in the middle of nowhere and your only chance of survival is to cut off your own arm, would you do it?
Yes, but I'd rather cut off someone else's arm to survive =P

5. You had to kill a member of your family if it meant you would save thousands of lives, would you?
Depends on the reason.

Yes or No

1. Have you had cyber-sex?
Psh, ex-roleplayer. =P Duh.

2. Would you masturbate in front of your partner?

3. Would you tell your partner (who you really love) that they are bad in bed?
Not in those exact words, but yes. I'd be honest.

4. While having sex, have you ever thought about someone else to keep you turned on?

5. Have you ever looked at a family member and felt sexually attracted to them?
No, too many females in my family.

1. Gay marriage is wrong?
Absolutely not. I totally support it.

2. The night of your best-friend's wedding their fiance comes on to you, should you tell your best-friend?
Depends on if he's drunk or something. But if I had serious doubts about their marriage, then yes.

3. You catch one of your parents having a one-night-stand, should you tell the other parent?
Totally doesn't apply to me.

4. Your partner wants to go to a "swingers" club, would you go to keep your partner happy?
No, if they seriously wanted to 'swing' then they aren't the one for me. I'd break up.

5. You are about to tell your spouse that you want a divorce but they just found out that a close family member is dying, do you still tell them?


1. Would you/Have you ever fake illness to get attention?
I have not. I don't know if I would, but probably not.

2. You are the first to arrive at the scene of an accident but it turns out that the person hurt is your worst enemy, do you help or walk away?
Help, just as if they were my best friend.

3. You have a non-life threatening sexual disease, would you have a one night stand without telling the person?
No. But I wouldn't really have a one night stand either. I don't trust that other people don't have diseases =P

4. Do you think it is important to tell the truth or spare someones feelings?
If it's going to hurt their feelings, then don't say anything at all. If something HAS to be said, then tell the truth. I wouldn't lie to spare someone's feelings.

5. Do you think this survey was truly original?
After seeing so many, not really. But it was pretty good.
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Soooo funny... and yet, sad =P [04 Sep 2007|11:04pm]
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Yay Jasmine!!! [12 Jul 2007|12:35pm]
I just got back from the vet with Jasmine. She's negative for Feline Leukemia and they think the lump on her neck is a cyst. The sample had to be sent to the lab, but the vet said it looked like a cyst. I'm very glad that it didn't appear to be a tumor and that she's negative for leukemia and FIV.

Also, her tooth loss is due to gingivitis, which is prominent in persians. She's only half-persian, but she got the bad genes lol. They recommended eventual tooth extraction for all of her teeth, but that's not an immediate or impending worry. She's still been eating, just the moist food, and doing alright. My poor baby's pretty white coat cost her a smile. :)

The weepy eyes were due to a bacterial conjuctivitis, so she gets to have goopy eye medication put in her eyes twice a day. I'm not looking forward to that, but some things just gotta be done lol. They said that should clear up in a week.

One down, one to go. Violet is next for the metal table. :)

So that's my update. I feel much relieved. Just have to wait a few days to get the test results back from the lump sample to see what that is.

Thanks Bast :)
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More than meets the eye [10 Jul 2007|12:15pm]

Your Score: Bumblebee

37% Leadership, 48% Specialization, 4% Aggresiveness, 45% Logic-Knowledge

"The least likely can be the most dangerous."
You are Bumblebee.

Bumblebee was often underestimated because of his small size, but when it came down to it, no other Autobot was as capable a spy as this little gold bug. He was the most specialized of the Autobots and utilized his full potential. His courage and phenomenal abilities garnered him respect and admiration from his fellows.

All around, Bumblebee was a technical specialist before anything else.

Link: The Which Heroic Autobot are You? Test written by VigilancePrime on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

I'm happy with this result. Bumblebee was always my favorite! :)
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Sharing :) [05 Jul 2007|01:53pm]
*The Invitation*

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dreams
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,

It doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the center of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

-Oriah Mountain Dreamer
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The carriage held but just ourselves and immortality... [26 May 2007|09:18am]
Last night at about 10:30, Philly, Andy, and I were all in the living room. We heard three gunshots. Andy said they were something else, but I knew they were gunshots. A few minutes later, we saw flashing cruiser lights through the living room window. About ten mins after that, Philly looked out the bedroom window to see what was going on. He came back in the living room and said, "There is a body bag right outside the bedroom window." We all went and looked... It was true. Last night, someone was killed right outside of my apartment. The detectives took about two hours before they came in and talked to us to ask if we'd seen or heard or knew anything... They didn't come get the body till about 4 in the morning though. Here's the link to the local news... Look for the "Man gunned down outside apartment." Should be the first one at the bottom.

All of us are alright. So no worries there. The detective didn't give me a name. I asked if he lived here and he said no. I asked about someone giving last rites or something for him. He said that wouldn't be possible because of the risk of messing up the evidence. But he said that the next of kin had been notified. Since I wasn't notified as n.o.k., I assume he wasn't anyone I knew. I understood and he understood my concern. I still lit a candle and put it in the bedroom window to let it burn all night. Because I didn't know the man's religion or spiritual beliefs, I read Khalil Gibran's "The Beauty of Death" for him while sitting at my bedroom window. I asked Hermes to guide the spirit safely to the otherworld. I called for Hades and Hecate to grant peace and rest to him. (Since Persephone is back up here :))The candle burned until this morning.

Then, Andy and I just walked to the corner store a short time ago. The manager there is an acquaintance of mine. I asked if he had heard the news, and he offered me some... Apparently, when the police came in there last night, they told the 3rd shift crew that the man who was killed was the 'wrong guy'. It was a mistake... Someone was supposed to kill a neighbor and got him instead because they had the wrong address. I don't know if this is true or not. But it doesn't bring any more comfort.

When we returned, I burned sage outside and asperged with water. Then I knelt and sang. Interestingly enough, I know the melody to the song I was singing. But for some reason, as I sang it, it was totally different. Totally different key and pitch and melody line. Still the same words though.

Birth to death
Death to rebirth
Eternal child of Mother Earth
Whate're thy spirit's path may be
Our love and prayers shall go with thee

All that comes from the Lady’s hand
One day must be given back again
But the grain that falls to the Reaper’s blade
Into the Bread of Life is made

Birth to death, death to rebirth
Eternal child of Mother Earth
Whate’er thy spirit’s path may be
Our love and prayers shall go with thee

The Lady’s ways are a mystery
But this I know, and this can see
That the winter always turns to spring
And the darkest hour the dawn does bring
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Dead On, I'd Say... [28 Apr 2007|11:17pm]
This is from the website

Birth Data: Juli

Birth Date: June 2
Birth Hour: 6


This unique reading is based on Five Element Theory, one of the oldest ideas used in Chinese astrology and a key component as well of Chinese philosophy and medicine. The five elements are associated with the five directions (North, South, East, West and Center) and as such have a 4,000 year history in Chinese thought. In contrast animals have been used as convenient short hand for designating years but not as integral components of horoscopes until very modern times. Even today many traditional astrologers do not even mention animals in their readings!

Simply put the theory states that the energy of the universe manifests itself through five elements: Wood, Fire, Earth, Metal and Water. Ideally there is a roughly equal number of each element in a chart, thus signifying balance and harmony.

The reading to follow explains how the elements in your chart reflect your personality. There are two primary considerations: the number of times each element appears in the chart and their overall balance.

Your Chinese Astrology Signs:

Year: Fire Snake
Month: Wood Snake
Day: Metal Tiger
Hour: Earth Rabbit
Year Element: Fire
Year Element Polarity: Yin (-)
Fixed Element of Year Sign: Fire

Section 1 -- Year Sign

The Chinese year sign consists of two characters, one designating an element and the other an animal. They are equally important in compiling and explaining a horoscope. In fact elements actually carry more weight. This is because each animal sign has a fixed element from which it derives many of its characteristics.

Your year sign is Fire Snake

Fixed Element

Each of the 12 (animal) year signs is associated with one of four elements, Wood, Fire, Water and Metal, three signs for each element, Wood with Tiger, Rabbit and Dragon; Fire with Snake, Horse and Sheep; Metal with Monkey, Rooster and Dog; and Water with Pig, Rat and Ox. Some astrologers, however, also use Earth. For them, Earth goes with Ox, Dragon, Sheep and Dog.. The other signs have the same correspondences. In fact the Ox, Sheep and Dog are rather, down-to-earth type signs. The Dragon, however, is the most quixotic of the 12 signs. This reading uses the first method, which is the one most commonly used.

Since each of the four elements is associated with three very different animal signs, it is not surprising that their influence is manifest in different ways. Consider Water for example. In the Pig it is exhibited as a go-with-the-flow approach to life, not unlike Water taking the shape of its container. In the Rat there is mental and physical dexterity. And, the Ox is fluid in the sense of adjusting to the demands of continually taking on the burdens of others. There are also similarities among the three signs, for example, an innate ability to develop communications skills.

Your fixed element is Fire

Dynamism coupled with decisiveness is one of the primary qualities associated with Fire. Since you are a yin (Snake-sign) person, this may not be readily apparent. Your decision making style is likely to be calculating, but that does not diminish the fact you are not afraid to go after what you want. And, with your mental abilities, you probably don't take that long with your deliberations. Finally, it should be said your dynamism tends to manifest itself more as mental rather than physical activity.

Charisma and flamboyance are other traits common to Fire-sign people. This is a significant factor in the almost magical charm you might possess as a Snake-sign person. This also contributes to your leadership potential and ability to inspire other people. Although you might tend to generally tone down your appearance, you can and do create a commanding package when you choose to make your mark.

Fire's passion and enthusiasm enhance all these capabilities. There is usually an intensity characterizing your efforts, especially when it comes to intellectual activity. This probably manifests itself by your desire to acquire an in depth knowledge of subjects that interest you.

A downside of your dynamism and passion is a tendency to be impatient and to have a quick temper. Coupled with your dynamism this could also result in your occasionally rushing into a situation without having thought through the consequences of your action.

As Fire spreads until it is actively opposed, you are likely to have unbounded ambition. As a Snake-sign person this especially manifests itself in you by an almost insatiable appetite for learning new things and having new experiences. In fact Fire bestows on you a sense of adventure in general. The Snake is a karmic sign, which means you are likely to experience extreme highs and lows in your life. Fire provides you the ambition to advance your self ever higher and also the willingness to take risks, which could lead you to some of those lows.

Your Fire is of the negative or yin variety, thus infusing in you the warmth of a fireplace rather than the white heat of a forest fire. This is reflected in your sensuality, which could be remarkable.

Fire can warm if controlled or burn when not. It contributes to your dark side in that generally, more than people of other signs, you are likely to harbor grudges and seek revenge when you feel you have been wronged. Mess with Fire and you could get burned.
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The "Gas Boycott" planned for May 15 is soooo lame [28 Apr 2007|11:39am]
I got this in a MySpace bulletin and I responded in a MySpace bulletin. But I thought about sharing it here as well.

In April 1997, there was a "gas out" conducted nationwide in protest of gas prices.
Gasoline prices dropped 30 cents a gallon overnight.

On May 15th 2007, all myspace members are asked to not go to a gas station in protest of high gas prices. Gas is now over $3.00 a gallon in most places.

There are 73,000,000+ American members currently on the myspace network, and the average car takes about 30 to 40 dollars to fill up.

If all myspace members did not go to the pump on the 15th, it would take $2,200,000,000.00 (that's BILLION) out of the oil companys pockets for just one day.
So, please do not go to the gas station on May 15th and let's try to put a dent in the oil industry for at least one day.

If you agree (which I can't see why you wouldn't) repost this bulletin--"Don't pump gas on May 15th

Juli Rant:

Okay... Okay... here's what I don't agree with and do agree with about this:

Basically, this 'quick fix' gimmick has been circulating on the internet since 1999. I think it's a good idea in general to be willing to stand up against corporate oil companies in an effort to make a change. But refusing gas for one day will NOT impact the major oil corporations nor will it effectively bring about lower gas prices. If people are only refusing to purchase gas for one day, they are simply going to fill up either before or after that day to make up for it. Admit it... you read this and thought to yourself, "That's a really good idea! I'll just get my gas before May 15th or wait till afterwards. That'll show 'em!"


Filling up on gas either before or after the day will effectively NEGATE the entire point to refusing to fill up on May 15. You will be giving the gas companies the money to 'survive' (not that they were ever really threatened) the frightening "May 15 Gas Out" by making up for their profits either before or after that day. Big Whoop.

Here's the fun part of this little gimmick though...

People desiring to 'do the right thing' and participate in this little idea will head to the pump the day before, creating mass traffic blockage and a run on gasoline. I've seen it happen, as I live right around the corner from an Exxon Oil Gas Station. This will affect the people working at the gas station, who have a big day of angry customers to look forward to. Oh joy.

Oil companies run their fuel supplies weekly basis, and since the "Gas Out" doesn't call on people to buy less gasoline, just to shift the date of their purchase by ONE DAY, oil company stockpiles won't be affected at ALL.

A boycott, my friends, involves GOING WITHOUT something. Think back to the days of our nation's Civil Rights movement. The southern Negro people did not simply say, "Let's not ride the bus for this day and really make them see how much money their losing by not having our service." How much impact would that have made? None. They stopped riding the busses all together, for the long haul, until the change they demanded was given.

The "Gas Out" is the lazy person's boycott. It's made to cause people to think that they are doing something positive, sticking it to 'the man', all the while, it has the least inconvenience to their personal lives. People that are participating in this probably don't ever do anything else environmental or political to make a change. It's a slothy salve for our over-indulged conscience. This won't make a difference, because no one is making a sacrifice.

If you REALLY want to make a dent in the corporation or in gas prices, start using public transportation. Start carpooling. Organize a WEEK where we go without filling up our cars by employing alternate modes of transportation. It's starting to warm up... how about walking some places or riding a bike?

Simply changing the day one buys gas does nothing, because nothing is being gone without.

Now, what I agree with about this...

I think that anything that draws attention to a problem and demands action towards a result is positive. This post circulating might get people to think about the impact that gasoline has on our lives. If you get angry about the amount of money being spent to fill up your car, then find POSITIVE, EFFECTIVE ways to change it. Decide how badly you want this change. And then make the sacrifice necessary to see it followed through. If you're just going to go without gas for one day, but otherwise make no move towards demanding a change, that single day is entirely pointless. If you're angry or frustrated or determined enough to start something that will work, then and only then will the desired change follow.

Thank you.
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From my MySpace blog [25 Apr 2007|08:33am]
My last bulletin was about the VA Pentacle Quest. Those that have talked with me, especially over the past six or seven weeks in depth, know what I'm talking about and why I'm so serious and involved with such things.

This is something very serious. It's not just about Pagans or Wiccans, this is about one of the major problems with the government and whether or not people are going to be willing to demand that it change. I'm exceedingly happy that we've won the right to display the pentacle as a soldier's grave marker. It's been a long, hard battle. I've written to my state representatives, senate, and to the office of the president during this fight. I've written to the ACLU offering my support for what they've been working on. I think that it's a big deal and that it will continue to be a big deal.

I remember years ago when the big issue was the miltary was the practice of Wicca/Witchcraft at Ft. Hood in Texas. When a Texas newspaper, the Austin American-Statesman, reported in 1999 that a circle of Wiccans was meeting regularly at Lackland Air Force Base near San Antonio, then-Gov. George W. Bush told ABC's "Good Morning America": "I don't think witchcraft is a religion, and I wish the military would take another look at this and decide against it."

Like so many other things I have against Ol' Dubya, that was one of the big ones.

I refuse to believe that America is as messed up as people say it is. It's only as messed up as we let it become. Apathy is the instrument of evil. And people that complain about it and don't fight it, lose some of their right to complain. At least with this, the complaining and the fighting have finally gotten us somewhere. Yes, it took time. Yes it took more time than it should have or than what was fair. But change is slow. I'm encouraged by this. This victory gives me renewed hope that other things that are being fought for can be achieved.

This is why the VA Pentacle Quest was so important. And this is why it's so good that we won.

And this:

This is the link to a documentary trailer about the story of Sgt. Patrick Stewart and his wife Roberta.
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Heheh... For Pagan Buddies! :) [19 Apr 2007|03:14pm]
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I think it's pretty accurate [16 Apr 2007|11:47am]
I am sort of surprised, but I guess not really, at my 'neurotic' score being so low. I guess that I've calmed down a great deal in the past few years. Or maybe I just always thought I was more high-strung than I really was.

My Personality
Openness To Experience
You are sociable, outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of the time. You are calm and composed, reacting well to situations that most people would describe as stressful. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising and you have less concern with others' needs than with your own. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

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Here are all the other bits that didn't get copied into the code:

You are a calm person who is considered almost fearless by some. You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you. You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge. You are poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed.

You generally make friends easily enough although you mostly don't go out of your way to demonstrate positive feelings toward others. You find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding, and you enjoy the excitement that crowds provide. You are an active group participant but usually prefer to let someone else be the group leader. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You love bright lights and hustle and bustle. You are likely to take risks and seek thrills. You experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy.

Often you find the real world is too plain and ordinary for your liking, and you use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world for yourself. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. As a person who is open-minded to new and unusual ideas, you love to play with and think about ideas. You also like to debate intellectual issues and often enjoy riddles, puzzles and brain teasers. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking.

You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. You are a reasonably organized person and like to have a certain amount of routine in your life. Your sense of duty and obligation is average and although you are mostly responsible you can sometimes be unreliable. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.
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